So I've decided to make a thread of mine too, Dali made my decision making easier
I've been doing inner work on daily basis for about a year now
I used to take a "day off" on sundays. I don't do that for some months LOL
On most weekends (when I'm home) I spend púretty much most of my waking hours doing this, sometimes 14 hours or so
On my working days, I come home from work, eat, then I do inner work, then I go to bed, watch some youtube videos, sleep and so on.
I've let go of various things, for example guilt about enjoying things, angers, I also projected onto people lot of things I learned from my parents (for example expected lot of men to be aggresive/harsh towards me in lot of situations, that was from my father and was not true at all), also feeling I had connected to having sex that the closest word I have for describing it is "blood" (nothing sadistic or anything, it was an abstract feeling that happened to have a colour in my mind) and shit ton of others
Basically when I let go of something, even second or minutes after I can hardly or not at all remember how it felt before or even what it was. If I don't intentionally remember it or write it down, I have no memory of it any longer.
So I Work on this intimacy issue, because I cannot feel or engage in any intimacy (including sex, but also emotionaly) with most women. It just gets blocked and I resist with all of my body. I tried to do it anyways, but it doesn't work. It just never goes to sex, women are not interested - Actually they are interested, but when it actually does come to sex, they are no longer. This happens because of my issues.
It seems I can have sex with INFP women (I am ENFJ), I think I only had sex with these lol. Maybe I could envision having sex with ENFJ women, but I am not sure.
My kind of women (that likes me and that I like) is different from what most men like, thank god I don't feel like I should like tall women or models or something
I like women like a singer Aurora ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIhfFFX39X0
Found an X-Factor, she reaches out to me a lot, I do reach out too to reciprocate, but it doesn't go further because I am not able to feel intimacy yet with her. She's an INTP
So I am basically putting as much time as I can into this so I can fucking get relationship and sex and get on with my fucking life thank you