I've been thinking about this topic for the last 20 minutes or so. I wanted to revisit this topic because I feel that I've been making progress.
smoking in general is a crutch. you need to find the real problem and resolve it.
if you stop smoking, you will have a lot more clarity.
^^^These two lines sum up everything about smoking. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to break free from this clutch. I'm taking a huge chunk out right now.
I realize that a lot of my problems stem from my unwillingness to accept certainty. To a large degree this deals with having my confidence dashed as a child.
Since this thread has been posted, I've come to see the futility of biting my nails, masturbating, and smoking.
What's interesting is that I magically stopped biting my finger nails when I was explaining to my brother why he should stop. I was trying to help him with his personal development. I'm not sure what happened, but over the course of a day or two I just started cleaning my nails and then let them sit.
I've also lost interest in masturbation and am currently figuring out why I still smoke. I don't know what conclusions I came to recently, but I know that I've been working hard at keeping my brother from falling victim to matrix. He's in his developing stages/formative years because he's about to hit puberty if he already isn't in it.
I've once heard the saying that there is no better way to learn something than to teach someone else. I don't know how true that is, but it makes me think.
Since reading EASYWAY, I'm starting to see the difference between habits and addictions too.
Oh yeah, I can't remember the last time I smoked weed if it was even in 2014.
The smoking issue is really getting to me though because I quit for a while and then started back again after reading EASYWAY.
In all honesty I'd drop the shrink aswell, especially if you don't think he's worth his salt.
Seems like there's alot of judgement from you towards you. Maybe it's more about releasing certain things than any notion of tightening up your mind, which to me indicates a fight. I think releasing is the thing which gives us stronger mindsets.
Most good psychiatrists don't say much. They'll just hold a mirror up to your thoughts and words.
^^^This is probably relevant as to why I've stopped a lot of stuff suddenly. I've been trying to show to my brother that he isn't accountable/responsible for everything the adult women blame him for because it's shattering his childhood confidence.
Prioritize & build a plan, a written one.
(use that journal)
What are the things you CAN change
and what are the things you have to,
just accept(?)
What things can you manage if you can´t
change them(?)
Build that mind into an orderly state of thinking.
^^^I still have the list of things that I want to change. Meraki and I had a discussion. He suggested that I was going about fixing things incorrectly. Since then, I've put the list on hold until I can solve the way I should be handling it. I figure that my list is composed of surface problems rather than root problems. Changing the outside is probably just a band-aid or something like that. However, I'm not cognizant of any root issues that I have except for nervousness, which is most likely caused by the cigarettes I smoke.