I see that everyone is in it for themselves.
Et tu?
On the market place of value offered, I probably am not offering much. Which is confusing as shit to me - I work 2 high level jobs, am developing myself in my hobbies, working my ass off in the gym
You are not your job. You are not your hobbies. You are not how much you lift.
and becoming more and more indifferent.
This whole post seems to imply that this is not the case. And then...
I don't have the self-love and inner confidence to not care about this at all. I don't know how to interact with people that I see are antagonistic towards me.
Which is a contradiction to that statement, to say the least.
These are things that are making me a into a better version of myself and making me, in turn, happier.
Adding things doesn't make one a happier person.
When interacting with people (and this mostly applies to people in my age group), I see cold looks and the attempts to push me down
.
Hmm, I wonder why.
This might sound narcissistic and full of ego, but I'm feeling like I'm evolving past them
I shit you not, if I'm hanging out with 3 classmates then it's usually 3v1, with 3 dudes or girls just doing there best to nitpick things that I said and spinning it into a way to put me down. I feel so uncomfortable around these people, and it's probably because I'm not secure in myself enough (and was used to getting validation from them). I honestly don't know if they're doing it because they used to be my ""validation-dealer" and are seeing me coming to them for that less and less, thereby doing there best to ring me back in. But it sucks and it's tiresome to not be able to just shoot the shit, exchange ideas and experiences without feeling threatened or being careful about what I say.
Hang on, you said that you feel you're evolving past them. If that's true, then why do you want to exchange ideas with them? How can you actually be threatened by them?
This is probably all pointing me towards realizing that only I can really accept and love myself and that I need to let go of all this. But damn, I don't know how to not give a shit about seeing such negativity pointed towards me.
You point the negativity toward others, they point it back. They're only picking up on how you truly feel about yourself and relaying it back to you.
That said, haters do exist and will try to bring others down for whatever reason they may have - but you need to discern the difference.