Introduction:
So, during my PUA times (writing these words with shame;) I was meeting with a girl but unsprisingly nothing happned:) She started a relationship with some other dude. Guy was a complete pussy, but rich, believe me every one of these PUA addicts has better game. I wasn't better to be honest, a needy wuss with low self esteem. I started to do a ton of inner work, improved my life, changed my look, getting more pussy in my life then ever. Things went so smooth that now,looking back on it my lifestyle was spoiling me:)
Part 1 - "space and indifference work like a charm"
After like half a year she writes to me on FB that's she is sorry etc. So I wrote her "OK". She started to text me more but I was starting to get these "indifference" and "be a man" things and living my life to the fullest so I didn't bothered. And that's where the fun part starts:
I wrote her best wishes on christmas and got a reply like that: "Stop calling me. Stop thinking about me. Forget about me. I'm engaged". I laughed hard, cause I didn't do any of that stuff:P I wrote back to her "As you know I always send wishes to my friends on Christmas:D All the best on the new way of life:D:D:D" -literally. 2 months passed, her birthday came, so I did send her wishes (I always do that, in my culture it's normal thing). She thanked in sms, then she thanked me on facebook lol Started to chat with her,she was complaining about that guy and basicaly giving me a blueprint to her mind. We've seen together a few times, then, we were to meet on sunday but she texted me that this guy is angry and don't want us to meet. I replied "I would be to, cause I want to fuck you:)". Then she started some testing I only wrote back "listen I'm not your friend,If you look for a one that's not me." Week passed she returned begging me to be with her. We started relationship and everything went great.
Part 2 - "Old demons that are not taken care well, sooner or later will come back"
I lost my job. We found out that my mother has cancer. I started to get nervous, and needy. No cash, boring life etc. We argued a lot, i had to travel for one month to get some cash. We argued more finally she dumped me. i gues there was some other guy involved too:) I was a jealousy machine:) Also, her mother hated the fact that I have no job. I got completely pussified:) after one month of no contact I wrote to her that I missed her etc:P LOL Unsprisingly no response:) I guess she is with that guy now. Looking back I became so outcome attached that it is ridiculous.
So now I'm back, having great job, top of what a man my age can achieve. Working on my inner game hard, feelling like I felt before my downfall. Glad to find this forum, everything I subconsciously felt now is internalized. Getting my clout to be stronger than ever. Indifference is the key to it all. Now I see the difference between what I want and what I need. I guess that's the key to get rid of being needy once for good. I'd like that girl back, but if not that's ok, I don't need her.
Start how u finish -I did exactly the opposite. So, is she gone forever? Could someone explain me this in more simple way, my english is not perfect