I pointed out in one of the very first sentences how this change in me has related to ALL people, not just women.
50% of the world is not women, and there are other rewards to be gained from these experiences, realizations, and awakenings, that have nothing to do with sex, or hooking up with someone.
The knowledge gained here goes so much further than sex
AT is pointing out what is slowly manifesting and what I have tried to explain on occasion...that chicks are just the entrance to the rabbit hole.
Exactly.
The responses from women are great 'n' all, and it's CRUCIALLY IMPORTANT to be aware of the manipulations (even if doing so dragged me into a period of extreme anger and darkness), but there's also so much more......
The increased interest from women is nice (and really fueled my ego for a bit
), but when I noticed the 'Mirror Effect' and how it affects the way my ENTIRE environment responds to me, as well as seeing that THERE IS NO SPOON with my own two fucking eyes, I found this waaaaaay more fascinating than just the 'woman thing'. Not only that, but it felt somehow more fulfilling as well.
Also, I believe Kidd!! once said something about when the knowledge learned on this site is applied to all aspects of life and not just 'wimmens', 'THAT is the secret sauce'. That's where my application of this site's knowledge has been directed lately. Not women, but MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE. (Whose life is it anyways?
)
Since you've shared, so will I. Hope I don't bore ya:
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Couple weeks back I was at a mall. Just wanted to read my book and occasionally observe people so I went into a small Chinese takeaway place (that i've been to before) to buy a drink to sip on while doing my thing.
.......and I walked into a shitstorm. The woman working there was having a VERY heated argument with a customer about a refund. The details aren't important, but it seems to me he was in the wrong. I didn't get involved, just walked around looking at the decor, wall hangings, shit like that, and listening to the exchange. Eventually she decided to just give him the refund to get him out of the shop, 'cause it was evident he wasn't gonna relent.
Once that's over, and i've made sure that he's out of sight & earshot, I go up & order my drink. She's shaking with rage, so I propose this internally - thinking it, but not saying anything out loud: "If you wanna vent, there's no other customers in here, so go ahead." Then I look at her & nod to the door. Then she CUTS LOOSE. Boyyyyyyyyyyy does she fucking cut loose.
I stand there and just listen. Stuff to reassure her passes through my mind, but I decided "Fuck it - i'll just listen. She doesn't need advice or reasoning right now."
Once she's finished & calmed down a bit, I just look at her, and before I could stop the words coming out of my mouth I say "You realise this won't last forever, right?" She stops dead in her tracks for a split second. Then she hands me my drink & change, and I notice her hands aren't shaking anymore.
Here's the fun part: while reading, i'm interrupted by a guy who taught me, very briefly, in school. He said he recognised me, but couldn't remember where from, but he really feels a desire to chat, though he doesn't know why. Would I mind? Although I really wanna read my book (I was on the last few chapters), I say "fine". We talked for almost two hours. Interesting conversation.
Once he goes, I decide that although i've been here far longer than intended, i'm gonna finish my fucking book anyway. Once I finish, I realise it's far too late to cook dinner once I get home. What to do, what to do?
I go back into the Chinese place, and decide i'm gonna be a smartass: I order a takaway equal in value to the meal she refunded the guy, but I don't think she got the irony. She seemed real happy to see me again, though. While waiting I take a closer look at an ad I noticed by her cash register for a guy who gives lessons in martial arts. I don't know anything about this guy, never heard of him, don't know if he knows what the fuck he's doing, but she sees me eying the ad and tells me (in broken English - she's a Chinese immigrant) she thinks he's world class
- she sends her son to him for lessons. And she seems to be telling me that I would really benefit from seeing him, all the while smiling at me. So I take his info down.
Thing is, in addition to meditation, I do "pranayams" - yogic breathing. It's done wonders for my health, as well as my perception. I wanted to go a step further and do something that helped me even more with physical fitness - it's time I started taking better care of my body, and this would help my mind even more. So I was considering yoga, and 'Grinus has a few posts on here about QiGong, which also looked really appealing to me. But I only have so much time in a day, so what physical practice would augment my mental practice the way pranayams have done, but also work on my body a bit more as well? And maybe also further assist with all the 'releasing' (letting go) i've been doing lately? Got some good info on the net on these practices, but still couldn't come to a decision. I was even gonna post here and ask the guys what they thought.
Well, last week I pulled out his info and went to his website. Holy fuck! This guy teaches Yoga, QiGong, T'ai Chi, all that shit. And he's been doing this for decades. The man with the knowledge & experience to help me decide & then train me. Fucking cool! I called him & explained what i'm doing now & what I want to get out of any new practice I undertake. We talk for quite a while, and he says QiGong will do what I want, but T'ai Chi may be even more appropriate, but he'll be able to offer better advice once we meet in person.
We meet next week.
Begs the question: did I really help the Chinese takeaway woman? 'Cause it sure looks like she helped me. And so did the guy who caused me to stay there far longer than I intended
Tactics, I for one really appreciate what you are trying to say with the title of this thread........