I'm opening this up to have a spot where
we can chime in on our
views of the Ego.
I had a grandeur belief that I had a small Ego.
FALSE.
My EGO was BIG.
It cloaked itself that I, the driver, didn't even know when it was
on board.
Ego is identification of thought; this is what resonates for me right now.
Separation of mind and body.
Most of the work I did was still in the realm of the Ego.
I went round and round.
Understanding Ego and realizing when it comes up has been
one of the bigger moments for me here.
A few posts that opened Ego up for me:
The ego LOVES to make a dramatic hero's journey out of the whole "red pill" thing. Suddenly you are this big super hero against the world, you are accepting this secret hidden truth that noone else sees and there is simultaneously hatred but a giant propping up because now you are one the 'special, different ones' - the centerpiece behind the whole drive in the first place. It loves and hates it.
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How to check in? Simple, look at your life -- more importantly, your internal state. Are you walking around thinking about your 'red pillness' and how cruel the world is, or are you too busy smiling and chilling out and being at peace. Notice how part of you actually loves that whole story much more than the one where you are just happy, because that's too simple. It will tell you quite clearly if you are moving forward or stuck in some fairy tale. The ego is clever enough to do this at ANY stage of the game.
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The truth is very simple and direct and will set you free. The more it is a source of pain/anger, and a source of separation, the more it is your mind and ego taking a simple realization and creating a new identity around it.