Natural Freedom

So as I'm doing my pushups daily (and other excercises), my point of view, observation and bode reactions do change..

Today with 3 friends we went by car to a nearby city, for an otaku meeting (about 50 people), some people I knew, most of them I did not until this day.
I've noticed one girl glancing into my directions looking at me, directly, few times - she was there with her BF. Once me mateguarded, switching his position between me and the girl.
Then I noticed a girl looking in my direction, without hiding, very obvious - But it was not directed at me but my friend - Later she jocked like shit, touching him, saying shit that make my head go "boom". Other chick, that I liked, started jocking him hard too - She sat herself next to him when she could, touching, eerything, later she talked how she wants us to take her home by our car, etc.

I noticed, altho, about one girl I didn't motion yet.. She said particular sentence (I can't remember what it was !!! ) and it was like RED FLAG MANIPULATION. like. hell.
The other girls too, I noticed them being manipulative often, I seem to start noticing it..

Now the fun part - This friend of my is a good guy, introverted pretty much, very conscious of the matrix - As he gets through experiences I tell him more about the matrix and what I understand about this.. And he oftens says how he sees what I've been saying to him for some time. This day he said "Well, today was fun, but I don't know why those two girls touched me like shit etc."
I'm like.. "They liked you, you did not see it ?"
He's "No, I never see these things ", then he asks how did I know..
I tell him about the touching, girls positioning themselves next to him, etc.. Then I mention the manipulation and he asks for another example, so he can get the concept and utilize it - he's very good at this. I tell him only what I understand :
"Girls try to indirectly manipulate you in making you do what they want, regardless of considering what you want."
He ask for practical examples. I have trouble remembering any, so I tell him I don't remember anything.
I'd invite him to the forum but he doesn't speak english.

I feel somehow calm about all this, but one thing. His front is high-class, and his clout is very good. He very much outshines me and I'm afraid that next to him I don't stand a chance..But yeah, I did not find any of those girls good enough

Btw - The girl I used to talk about was there too, so was her "friend" - He's been her best friend to spend weekend with, and probably sleep in one bed without any touching. He didn't seem happy at all, so he's still just "friend" it seems.. He's taking it further down to symp path, he started buying her things and pay for her, my friend told me..
"He's totally up her ass !" He told me, I responded just
"He's trying, but she's got her head in her ass already"
As I'm watchin this, I'm starting to value the freedom, the knowledge... I'm starting to understand it. And it is worth it already

That's all well and good but how do you feel in yourself?.

_________________
"Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."

After a long time I wrote few pages in my introspection notebook, to see how much I changed and read my older writings.. I don't feel anything about all the things I feltuneasy - childhood stuff, etc
I don't feel, like, sure of what I'm doing, because:
I figured out that I have to figure out what I have to do, not what I just love or like to do.. And I don't know what I have to do yet. Indifference is a by product of putting more weight on your purpose or things you love to do, than a woman - I now understand that men who do not fill the space withing themselves with their work (and being their best friend), try to fill it up with women, because we are trained to...

Funny thing happened yesterday: I talked about the weekend with a friend who was there also, he talked about a girl he attracted there - It got to the point when he told me that if there's no other way, I should "chase her" and basically fill the space and symp her... Now, before that day I was unsure and doubting, but no yesterday, I told him that the best girls that I've spent time with always found their way to me.
Literally a minute after that I got a text on my phone from a girl, wishing the best (It was my nameday) asking how I am and telling she didn't see me for some time. She works at the supermarket here sometimes, I know her from there, told me she doesn't have much time but I could stop by and we can chat.
Maybe, but the point is the CONfirmation

But what's only important is figuring out what I have to do in life, all the uncertainty streams from it

Keep on diggin'.

There's no reason to ever doubt the effectiveness of space, it's like gravity.

_________________
"Simply put, you being in her life is a BLESSING. Her wronging you in any way is her own self-inflicted CURSE, and if she does wrong you, then let the punishment fit the crime. Her life will absolutely SUCK without you."