You still have the friends you always had, nothing has changed but your understanding. There is nothing wrong with you contacting them first if it's something you actually want to do. Like maybe to help you study if you are in school, it's all fine as long as you understand why they are helping you. It isn't because they are nice, it's because they expect something in return. As long as what they want is worth with what they give to you, what's the problem?
One of the points of the exercise, in my opinion, is to show you that people mostly care about what you can do for them. A book which might be interesting to you is one called "No more Mr. Nice guy". In this book the author writes that nice guys are frustrated because they expect the currency of being nice to buy what they want. The problem with that is that the world doesn't give a fuck about what you want or how you behave (as long as it isn't too outrageous), the world only cares what you are and what you can do. So the nice guys dont get paid for being nice (fake) and feel robbed and frustrated. Maybe this is how you feel maybe not.
I wanted to be more clear with this because English isn't your first language (it is still very good) and so I think there is a little misunderstanding.
Thanks again for your answers guys, I will follow your conseil caster. I already red that book but for what I remember it wasn`t so interesting, but I ll check it again.
Yeah aint easy to explain in English, especially mixing general with particular and viceversa.
Right now the frustration has gone, maybe because I start to accept it this "red pill".
Someone explained it before as the frustration is a result to compromise to his own laws, as a failure to obey to himself. Deep down, I have reflect on these words and they are absolutely true.
I remember the episode with my mother talking about a friend of mine who we used to go to the gym together (PT, popular with girls, tattoed looking like a bad boy, older tha me) in particular about changing the gym because it wasnt a good environment, about what time train togheter and other shit, she sayied «you are his dog»…at that time I didnt listen «it is all BS», because i got in shape, flattered by that…guess what? when it comes to money, he tried to convince me to stay to that enviroment that he criticized because it is now good (at his terms because he will not pay the monthly subscriptions because he put 5-6 clients in that gym to coach, and get clean money per coaching) LOL.
Correct me if I am wrong but for what I understand fighting the emotions (or escaping), whatever they are, is useless.
At the end all boils down to cope with being alone and what to do with the free time to be the person the world needs.