Haha yeah man - no worries. Plenty of spotlight for everyone!
The best road ahead is probably going to be acceptance and allowing. Letting the emotion do it's thing.
You're on the right path man. Just keep going. Its not an easy path, or a quick one, but it is worth it.
You will have more insights like this one. More things will trigger you, and you can feel into why they are triggering, and gain an understanding.
One thing to keep in mind is that every "programmed behavior pattern" that you have (like low self-esteem or feeling unlovable) was created for a reason. It served you somehow in the past, often protecting you against something that happened (or could have happened) when you were very very little. So that behavior pattern was a good thing at one point in time, but now its not anymore.
It can be very useful to ask, "how did this serve me?" and "how does it continue to serve me?