I realeased and let go of various stuff, mostly about the last girl I got so attached too, then various stuff about not feeling good enough, sadnesses I did not know where they came from.. Lots of stuff, but about most it's like I forget abotu what it was after the let go, hard to describe some time after
I spent 2 hours doing this today, but I stand now in front of something that seems like a wall - Some time ago I've forgiven my parents because they didn't know any better etc.. But today I end up thinking about how I'm in relationships like my parents - They are both single, father longterm, mother broke up with a guy recently.. And I see them hardly ever meeting somebody compatible with them in relationship.. It's not they don't have anybody that likes them, at all... I just don't know what to do more, really, I see myself standing in the same situation.
If I concetrate on being busy, this will undermine everything. I just want how to deal with this, I can't seem to dig up anything about it. It's been reflected in all my previous relationships, the most recent was very simmilar to my parents' when they were together in tons of ways.. I don't know how much is it wrong and how much it's OK.
Kidd I once spoke about the feelings and thoughts of not being like your father, you told me that you know how that feels, how do you see yourself in regards of your father ? How do you see women you end up with in relation to your parents' relationship ? (Everybody else is welcome to share too)
I have a belief that, why should I be with a girl that's not good match for me ? Is it bad ?
I'm dissapointed... I'm ending probably like my father, I start to see women jocking me, but they are not attractive to me and I feel guilty I'm not attracted