For several months I went to bars to play table tennis which I got good to a point where I
would win several weeks in a row on Monday tourney nights.I found that it wasn’t making me
content and something is missing.I thought that perhaps making videos on YouTube in an
attempt to share with others is something that could lead to a feeling of being centered.
There was a couple days last week where i felt motivated to make videos and then I sort of lost
the motivation.Instead I would do things like expose my balls to sunlight,take epsom balts and
go on very long hikes in attempt to increase testosterone.The dopamine effect from the sun
and magnesium would at times make me hard and I would go the park and walk around
and see if woman can smell this.Although raising testosterone to a point can be good I
noticed there is a cost to feeling horny so much.Anyways the whole weekend my parents
we’re gone and I was mostly focused on increasing androgens and I have not
had a lot of fun besides walking on the streets observing people.I hope to be
more motivated to make videos.Need some more inertia in life.Any suggestions?
Here is my channel.