Natural Freedom

On my way to class today I notice an old familiar feeling - anxiety. I feel those butterflies in my stomach. I ask myself, "Why? Why are you doing this to me?" I look good. I feel good. Girls are checking me out and playing with their hair. I walk through one building to catch some AC. A girl exits a class down the hall, glances at me and nervously shuffles to the door. I think, "Does my anxiety rub off on them or theirs on me?" I continue on to the science building. I see a girl standing under a tree while talking on her cell. I know her. We hooked up last Spring. She smiles and waves to me. I smirk and wave back. I start to feel better. I again ask myself, "Why?"

I'm asking myself why as well

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

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You feel anxiety because on some level you are being incongruent.

For whatever reason it is.

The more congruent you are, the less you feel it.

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.

You need to just get over yourself, relax and enjoy it. Maybe you feel weird because you can't believe how easy it is? I know I felt like that for a bit right after I solidified. If that's the case, cherish it...you only get to experience the 'whoa' moment once.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

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This kind of thing doesn't happen much anymore. It's funny, I actually felt like I moved past my social anxiety. Certain things can still trigger it. As for the "why"...let's see

Incongruence is definitely part of it. I usually shy away from the spotlight. I'm almost the opposite of an attention whore. At school there is no way for me to shy away. Everyone checks everyone else out. I'm comfortable knowing I don't need, or want to perform for anybody. However, when I notice girls are looking at me (when at school) I feel like I'm expected to do something. That's the incongruence. The feeling that I need to be someone other than myself. When that girl waved at me I stopped caring about everyone else and remembered that yours truly can reel one in from time-to-time. I remembered that I don't need to be "more" than me.

Kidd, are you trying to tell me, "There is no spoon?"

It's weird because the atmosphere at the bar or club has that "meat market" vibe to it but I don't get anxious at all. I don't even have to drink. I can just order diet coke and people watch.

If your uncomfortable with the spotlight on you...focus it on others .

And use the time to introspect.

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"The heart is deep beyond all things, and it is the man. Even so, who can know him."

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“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. . . ."

-Thoreau's Walden

You are allways in the spotligth if you are dealing with women.

Indeed.

Just like gold and land, women are a coveted resource. You must be responsible and exercise caution when handling such things.

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“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. . . ."

-Thoreau's Walden

Altair, turning the spotlight on them is a good perspective. Girls can get fidgety and self-conscious when you catch them looking.

Rant, it's true women are judgmental. Well we all are really. We look and we make judgments. It's kinda shitty.