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 Post subject: last weekend
PostPosted: Tue Jul 30, 2013 1:42 am 
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There is many details to this so it may come a little scattered.

I live in a truly beautiful place where people come for holidays and recently had this friend coming down for a visit to her sista which lives couple of hundred meters up the road. She used to live down here and we used to work together in an restaurant for 3 years that I still work in. This history is 12 years old. She is 28 old now and very sexy. We are good friends. My girl is good friends with her too. She was always fond of me and used to complaint to me that all good guys like me are taken and she seems to bump onto not such good ones. Little did I know by then, always wanted but didn´t know how.

Since she moved out she was visiting here more than once and I always remeber her being all over me with just a little bit of alcohol. One time she came even with other man which I could see was getting emotional about her and wanted a relationship but she was undressing to bikini on her terrace in front of me and hugging me a lot. A poor guy only peaked from inside the house. She worked by then already as a prostitute, more exactly expensive escort girl. She was very loud about it in many interactions as still learning to accept it. This time she came with a man which left after few days to go on with his life. I saw her once with him and told her I will see her on a different occassion (My girlfriend met her first and I knew she had not had a ticket back and expected the guy will be gone in few days). Quickly after he left she was trying to get in touch via her ugly sister which I find really weird at the same time. She is about 35 and a total gold digger. Lives with a 80 years old guy with a big villa. I quite like the man though and he is in a good shape. Rather like 60. What puzzles me is that he lives with her. We will call her CB from now on. Shortly for cockblock. They tried to phone me for 4 days every day with no luck as I am really busy with the summer season at the moment and they had no mobile phone number. I could see it on my phone but couldn´t be bothered to return a call as it is written in my headset with a CB´s name. I don´t really like her. Eventually they got me home and after two hours they where at my place. TheGirl is what I am gonna call the sexy one from now on.

Ahh I nearly forgot to mention. I fucked Thegirl once while she still lived here. She broke up with her man and went out to a party which lasted more than a night and I took her to my place together with my girlfirend. We were exhausted and messed up and she didn´t want to face her family and she was invited to sleep the night at mine. I only had one bed and we fucked with my girlfriend (still living with me) sleeping by side. I couldn´t fall asleep with this thing by side me and moved on her as she was asleep. She woke up but didn´t protest. After years I worked out she must have planned it to a degree. That must have been 6 years ago.

Back to story. She came with her titties so nicely presented that I thought that I am gonna go to a shed for quick wank. I told her that later and she laughed. I asked her if she is bored (since the other guy left already) without the company and she said yes. I asked than if she wants to spend more time together and she said yes. Since the previous night I was plannig to go to out with a male friend of mine my girlfriend and a other cute girl (call her Next) that works with my girl but it didn´t work cause everyone flaked out I came with an idea of going out this very same night but include also TheGirl. Since there was no way of avoiding taking the CB she went out with us too, and here we were 6 of in town drinking cocktals in bars and chatting away.

I want to mention that the male friend of mine have been single for a while and I wanted him to be with women and had the feeling that him an Next might get on together. Also I recognize him as a really nice person with original interests and like to spend time with him, he also wanted to go out with me but I didn´t warn him about a female company we will be having so he did´t have much time to think about it. He was nicely surprised and the Next did like him as I was expecting but I only found it out the next day. Boys and sometimes traveled separetaly from place to place as me and my buddy where on pushbikes ( we were playing polo before meeting and caught up with them afterwards) and left the cars somewhere else. My gilrfriend told me that she was really going on about him as they where in a car where we couldn´t hear after the first session in a bar. Shame she leaves in just few days. Hopefully she will be back in october. I would really like something good for my buddy to happen and also really enjoyed the night.

It did not take many drinks before The Girl asked me to go to a toilet with her where, she promised to wash my hands. As she as washing my hands which was extreme sexually loaded I quickly commented that it should be a shower to which she responded with a smile. We kissed and came back to the table. She also told me not to forget that she is happy to see my girlfriend there. Years ago she used to tell me that she is the only girl that she wouldn´t mind to sleep with. She was into this threesome already :lol: Little did I know.

Night was good we walked together to one of the places TheGirl had me by the arm and we had some interesting conversations. She told me how she remembered her mom often cried and that there was always 3 aunts at home which she later realized where prostitutes. She was saying how her father always was telling that the pussy gets old and no one quickly wants it how she can work like this only probably for the next 10 years and than no one will be willing to pay as much as 3000 Euro for sex with her and she has work every day and is being taken for expensive travels and so on. Nonetheless she still feels like giving it to those she really likes and for some reason she really likes me. We got to the next place where I got a bit excited and she slowed me down by telling me that this cake is mine and I don´t need to hurry so much. I agreed. Couple of minutes later I was playing with her beautifull clevage and tiities during conversation as she just continued talking about how she see herself in me. How I talk to my girlfriend, how I argue, and how I talk like her father. She also said she is way more like her father and is not at all like her mother. To me her father was a pimp. She added that she is only my adventure.

We moved too a next bar. She had a conversation with my girlfriend on the way which my buddy heard and couldn´t believe at all. Apparently she told her that she is gonna fuck me. When we got there she sat on my lap and told me she has everything arranged with my girl and that I have nothing to worry about. But the new place was shit and it was getting late everyone more drunk and TheNext came with an idea of going home. My buddy was also being wierded out buy the CB. He remebered she crawled into his his tent few years ago and he had to kick her out of there. We decided to leave all together although me, my girlfriend, TheGirl and the CB ( I really couldn´t get rid of this bitch,she was girls driver) where to still go to mine. Friends looked after my kids so they where not at home. I was still on a bicycle and had to get to my car so I drove separetely and still got home first. It didn´t look like it was gonna finish well with a CB going to mine. They didn´t even get to mine. I had no drink at home to follow up with fun anyway and there is no night shops here. TheGirl crashed out in a car and they stayed at theirs and only my girlfriend came home. So the the play still goes on. We have not been in touch since but it was just two nights ago and I don´t wanna rush things.
Lessons and observations are to me that I have learned a lot in a last couple of years. That if they want it you don´t need to do much. I focused a lot on creating a space as Peregrinus would say. I also allowed this girl to do everything to get me rather than push myself onto her and try to get her. She was constantly checking if I have drink and if I am happy with it. I told her that really liked how she looks after me. I need to say I never had such experience before or never had enough ability to observe. My ego greatly boosted. I felt great. I could see how differently I was interacting with other girls like bartenders in a club and have recognized every sympin around. Everything seemed so transparent. Even more than usual. I felt like this bitch is lifting me up! Like she really takes care I am well. Some attachment noticed today to the feeling of high she brought with herself and wanting to invite her over since she told me to only send her a signal and she will call back. She said that earlier as we exchanged the numbers. The high I am talking about is of sort how I dealt with other women and how I could see they have seen me as different than many others. This was what the gut was telling me. I was very relaxed. Again this is very rare for me but this girl seems to be my x-factor. Great motivator to work on myself as I was getting a bit depressed dismantling my ego. I did not expect it to go so well although I had expectations.
Any comments on how this could be followed up and what I could look at are really welcome. I am planning to invite her for a lunch in couple of days if she doesnt get back to me first. Tell me what you think of this idea. She is gone in a month.

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 Post subject: Re: last weekend
PostPosted: Tue Jul 30, 2013 5:53 pm 
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Rider wrote:
I focused a lot on creating a space as Peregrinus would say. I also allowed this girl to do everything to get me rather than push myself onto her and try to get her. She was constantly checking if I have drink and if I am happy with it.
Rider wrote:
I need to say I never had such experience before or never had enough ability to observe. My ego greatly boosted. I felt great. I could see how differently I was interacting with other girls like bartenders in a club and have recognized every sympin around. Everything seemed so transparent. Even more than usual.
Rider wrote:
The high I am talking about is of sort how I dealt with other women and how I could see they have seen me as different than many others. This was what the gut was telling me. I was very relaxed.
Finish how you start, that is my advice for how to take it from here.

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 Post subject: Re: last weekend
PostPosted: Tue Jul 30, 2013 6:14 pm 
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Agreed with 'Grinus of course. You're no rookie...the Force is strong with this one. :ugeek:

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 Post subject: Re: last weekend
PostPosted: Tue Jul 30, 2013 6:26 pm 
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Rider wrote:
she slowed me down by telling me that this cake is mine and I don´t need to hurry so much.

We have not been in touch since but it was just two nights ago and I don´t wanna rush things.

Lessons and observations are to me that I have learned a lot in a last couple of years. That if they want it you don´t need to do much.

She is gone in a month.
This is what stands out to me. As Peregrinus says, finish how you start. And don't let this notion...
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Again this is very rare for me but this girl seems to be my x-factor.
...Get in the way.


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 Post subject: Re: last weekend
PostPosted: Tue Jul 30, 2013 8:54 pm 
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peregrinus wrote:
Rider wrote:
I focused a lot on creating a space as Peregrinus would say. I also allowed this girl to do everything to get me rather than push myself onto her and try to get her. She was constantly checking if I have drink and if I am happy with it.
Rider wrote:
I need to say I never had such experience before or never had enough ability to observe. My ego greatly boosted. I felt great. I could see how differently I was interacting with other girls like bartenders in a club and have recognized every sympin around. Everything seemed so transparent. Even more than usual.
Rider wrote:
The high I am talking about is of sort how I dealt with other women and how I could see they have seen me as different than many others. This was what the gut was telling me. I was very relaxed.
Finish how you start, that is my advice for how to take it from here.
I am not gonna follow up with questions so my answer is: It will be done. I know how I start. Thanks for pointing it out. I had always difficulities with grasping this concept. I might get it now. I don´t mind if you point me to any interesting read about it. You know this place better.
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Rider wrote:
she slowed me down by telling me that this cake is mine and I don´t need to hurry so much.

We have not been in touch since but it was just two nights ago and I don´t wanna rush things.

Lessons and observations are to me that I have learned a lot in a last couple of years. That if they want it you don´t need to do much.

She is gone in a month.
This is what stands out to me. As Peregrinus says, finish how you start. And don't let this notion...
Quote:
Again this is very rare for me but this girl seems to be my x-factor.
...Get in the way.

Nicely extracted. You pointed me out to my illusion of running out of time.
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Agreed with 'Grinus of course. You're no rookie...the Force is strong with this one. :ugeek:
I see you noticed I consider myself inexperienced. How far down the journey he is, one sometimes does not know. Thank you.

To add to it, all I am concered about is how much influence on my state of mind success have. How to work so this stuff nor brings me up nor puts me down or at least just brings me up. I still feel like a lot of my self esteem is dependant on how I am being recieved/percieved by women. I am working on my deservedness issues which I observed recently but I remember thiniking at that night when I played with her beautifull big breasts: "Wow, I really feel like this is for me. I never felt like this. I should feel like this more often."

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