Last week a friend asked if I would like to do LSD with them. The time was right and it happened.
The experience was beautiful!
I'm NOT recommending taking LSD through this thread, only sharing my experience.
I've always had a curious attraction to psychedelic substances from a young age, but only recently have they come into my life.
Earlier in the year I had an experience with another psychedelic drug that didn't work in the end, but I walked away with two lessons. My mindset was looking at the wrong thing. I believed psychedelics would 'cure' me and 'fix' me. False. Only one thing can do those things. You, or for my case, Me.
The other was don't fear the unknown. I tried to 'prepare' myself for the drug by reading as much as I could, because I was scared of not knowing what would happen. All reading others experience does is box in your own experience. Your/my experience is unique to us, it may never happen to anyone else. But by reading others experiences and preparing yourself to their experience you can stop your own experience from flowing out. That's my opinion. So, going into LSD I felt way more relaxed.
The day was a beautiful day, sunny and warm. I had the day off which made it even better. One of the people in the group was my good friend. The others where people I did not associate with. It didn't bother me taking LSD with people I just met.
We gobbled it down and headed to the local park.
At first I felt high, like smoking weed, then I visited a different level. There was a sense of mental confusion that was beautiful. The world looked different. Brighter and clear.
I spent the initial part with the group. Mostly I was enjoying the scenery on my own, and didn't feel a need to converse. Besides the other two fellas kept feeling the need to brag about their cool stories and what not. Wasn't interested.
At one point when I was still with the group, I could see clearly through them. I took their words deeper than the constants and vowels that where spoken. The two girls didn't truly say much; nothing with depth. The two other fellas said A LOT. Their EGO's where chirping none stop. Much of anything that came out of their mind was constant reinforcement of their image. How cool they where or what they did. Behind their sentences I could see where their true sense of worth came from; others. Their was a constant battle within them to keep feeding their ego; they where restless.
On the other hand I found myself in a euphoric state toward the middle of my trip to the next day at work in 6 in the morning!
Toward the beginning of my trip though I remember feeling a discomfort within. I had an urge to walk somewhere else and leave our current spot. The place we where at was beautiful, on top of a hill overseeing the view. For me, it wasn't enough. I needed to move. Then, I went deeper to the source. My discomfort came from believing the other place would bring me more joy then the place right now. No place is different if you're unhappy from within. No girl, no new place, no new 'x' is different unless you're happy from within, because then do you only have the space to take in what is truly in front of you.
After that point things lightened up. I decided to leave the constant ego bickering and walk on my own. Which was much more enjoyable!
I walked around, then took a seat on a rock, laid back, put my headphones in and let the waves of LSD take me away. I surrendered a bit, and got taken away.
When I returned to the group, by their request, I remembered a point where I felt an ecstasy while sitting down with them. There was nowhere else to be, but in that moment itself. That sank in for a second.
I journeyed off again after some time and enjoyed the calmness I felt inside by myself. I remember not controlling much of anything within me. Whatever came up came up and I went with it.
Let the leafs flow down river, no need to grab any, unless you truly feel like it.. (sloppy paraphrasing).
Lastly, I enjoyed how LSD dissolved time for me. Seconds didn't seem like seconds, and neither did minutes or hours.
I might cook up some ayahuasca this summer, it's supposed to be a milder version. 
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