Hey guys,

Something hit me today. I was re-watching Breaking Bad and thinking about all the interactions I'll have to have today and noticing my fear of them all.

Then I said to myself: "How about we just drop the framework of fear/anger/anxiety and let whatever happens happen?"
"No, this is safe"

I barely registered the thought in my head, but then I realized that that's one of the reasons I've been making such slow progress. I love the fact that I'm a victim and have something external to blame on not enjoying myself and life. Why would I want to assume personal responsibility when this is so much more convenient?

What's sickening is knowing I'd rather cry and pout but blame things externally than do what needs to be done (dropping beliefs and such).

So that's it, thought I'd share. 'Till next time, folks.

Hey guys,

Something hit me today. I was re-watching Breaking Bad and thinking about all the interactions I'll have to have today and noticing my fear of them all.

Then I said to myself: "How about we just drop the framework of fear/anger/anxiety and let whatever happens happen?"
"No, this is safe"

I barely registered the thought in my head, but then I realized that that's one of the reasons I've been making such slow progress. I love the fact that I'm a victim and have something external to blame on not enjoying myself and life. Why would I want to assume personal responsibility when this is so much more convenient?

What's sickening is knowing I'd rather cry and pout but blame things externally than do what needs to be done (dropping beliefs and such).

So that's it, thought I'd share. 'Till next time, folks.

If you actually understand a concept, for example the be your own best friend one from here, you'd be actively applying it in your real life. If you believed that were the most important thing you would be *living your life as though* that were the most important thing.

The figureheads here can probably relate too well to comments like:
"I get it that giving space is super important, but [insert story showing the exact opposite of someone who believes that giving space is important]"

Until you're living it, you don't get it. Reading something and saying 'i agree with that' or 'that seems to make sense' is not knowledge. With real knowledge the fake idea between these two so called sides dissolves into one process.

Making it complicated is often more of a convenient way to distract...Most of the good practices I am aware of, meditation etc are not that complicated, they just require consistent practice.

If you truly follow thru on these epiphanies of yours, then you are about to have REALLY good summer.