Natural Freedom

After realizing and accepting that I was causing my own misery, and that nothing external will actually fix it (only make it go away temporarily), I have been having a lot of different thoughts. I see through my actions more clearly and I am focusing on myself a lot more. As a result, I've had a few more thoughts about myself that I'd like to share and let them be commented on.

* I am uncomfortable with receiving positive energy and being liked in general. This, to me, sets up a potential situation where I eventually let that person down. But I'm pissed that I don't allow myself to accept and expect people to treat me nicely. Just the other day, my new boss and his team were being really awesome to me and I felt...guilty in a way, like I didn't deserve it. But them again, I am angry when I am ignored by people and am deathly afraid I'll do something to send them away. This paralysis and subsequent anger is a goddamn crazy cycle.

What it boils down to is that being me isn't enough, that there's something wrong with me that I have to make up for. The crazy thing is I make that decision, it's not an objective fact. And yet...

* I have trouble letting things go. I realize I have lived and though in a certain paradigm my whole life, and that I feel threatened letting it go (seeing as I think it's protecting me from something) makes sense. The former motivation for the demons to go away (getting people to like and accept me) is gone. Now the demons are just there, and while I'm not trying to channel my energy into making them go away by changing the external world. I still have no idea what to do with them while they're inside. Eventually, I think I'll have to come to a point where I accept them. But right now, I know that they're holding me back and that I don't have control over them. Or maybe I can accept them and take control over them as well. I'd like your guys opinions on this. I am thoroughly mindfucked on this.

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Take it easy, man. But take it.

How can you accept anything when your internal environment is so crowded.

Your internal environment should be four walls and a roof plus floor nothing more.

Do you get the analogy? If you can explain the analogy then you're well on your way to fixing your problems.

I think it's been said enough around here that you befriend your demons and make them work for YOU.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

Pimposophy Revisited is now finally available on Amazon in all territories!

Space, clear my head...nothingness basically.

@Kidd: I really don't get how they can work for me when they're limiting beliefs. Let's say I have a fear of abandonment...how can that work FOR me?

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Take it easy, man. But take it.

Why don't you ask the energy?

Fear of abadonment / limiting belief is a label you give it.

Again, it is not an semantic or intellectual process.

Hint: everything in you is working for you. The error is in perception and fighting against it

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTXz8xMaJi4

Fear of success

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In building a statue, a sculptor doesn't keep adding clay to his subject.He keeps chiseling away at the inessentials until the truth of its creation is revealed without obstructions. Perfection is not when there is no more to add,but no more to take away.

Fear of abandonment isn't the demon...it's a symptom of being at odds with your demons.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

Pimposophy Revisited is now finally available on Amazon in all territories!

Thanks for the responses guys. They're true.

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Take it easy, man. But take it.

Of COURSE they're true ...look at your audience.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

Pimposophy Revisited is now finally available on Amazon in all territories!

This one goes true for me.

This is just rationalization for a fear of failure and
not understanding the secondary gain concept.

"You become over the fear of failure by having
goals worth failing for." ---Bob Proctor

You can never outperform your self image.
Since self image is subjective, you can change it.

The image you have for yourself is nothing but
an idea in your mind, upon which your entire
personality is built.

One does not have drug problems or relationship
problems or financial problems. All the problems are
those of self image. This concept was already on
the Balls Project; that identity is the key for massive
leverage and changes.

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Every time I come here it says;

"You have been SUCCESSFULLY logged in"

"You have been SUCCESSFULLY logged out"

There now that was not scary at all...

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