Natural Freedom

I've noticed that sometimes I'm perceived not as I meant my actions to be. I assumed with my observation and introspection this will decrease, but on some level this must still happen I think. This is mostly in relation to girls.

Two situations. One co-worker was talking a lot to another dude and didn't seem to do much. The dude literally folded two shirts when she went on break and only cause I stood near him and forced him to work. I got mad at the girl and answered one of her questions that in my mind asked about my attitude. I was wrong. I spoke my anger and accidentally, realized that and reneged. I knew most of my anger was insecurity, the other part due to lack of work. The lack of work was not bad enough for me to say something, yet. Insecurity suck through most likely in the bout. However I initially stated flatly and without insecurity that she talked too much. She said she wouldn't talk to me again. If the room looks bad with three people I look bad, so that's really why I care. Another girl went over to her one day to ask about me I over heard them and she said I was a creep. Now to her my anger seemed random and unjustified. The dude definitely didn't do squat. She at least did something even if she was pretty slow. I think my two angers mixed and the insecure anger must have been the main energy, thus the perception. However in my experience women get nasty fast. Faster than guys. If I try to say anything to them they resist. If I prove to be right they just shut up. They don't apologize or seem ashamed. Why? I would usually do both.

Second we were playing volleyball the girl I thought was a ball hog. In actuality she may have served like once more than me or equal to me on average. However one kid kept not serving and hadn't served once in the game. I told him he was up. The girl went over in the place. She served the most in that game I think. All I said was Hey! She just gave me this eye-popping nasty look. I should have stood my ground. Seemed like me, her and another kid served the most. She had been stinking which is the major reason I wanted the other dude to serve. Why is it so easy to be seen negatively by women? Guys are usually chill about things. That dude would have been like its cool and let the girl serve if I said anything. So I think I would have looked foolish.

I think most times some other energy must leak through, like insecurity and they respond to that even if that's not what I'm trying to convey.

Here is your problem. Stop expecting people to have your morals/mindset...they'll disappoint you EVERY time
Here is another problem. Women are generally emotional...men are generally logical. It really is that simple, so stop making it so complicated.

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EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.

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And too much E-motion will distort Perception.

Think what hate does. Initial condition of the observer counts.

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