So.. I've been waiting, collecting evidence etc to start this topic.. About 3 weeks or so. I will highlight important things..
There's a gal I've known actually for some time, almost half a year, we've got mutual friends. I've seen her often, but we've never had a conversation or anything together, most of the time she just sits, looks on the table or floor and sometimes says something.
At one point at time, month ago or so, I got to know a new guy, we were searching for a job together etc, spent time in pubs etc, great guy - Thing is he liked the gal I'm talking about too. we've started going out 3 or more, regurarly, sometimes daily
I didn't know I like the gal, yet.. It took me two weeks to find out she's basically what I like, probably the closest to what I imagine, so far
She's problematic, not regular gal.. I'm trying not to put her on pedestal, the line is thin.. She told me she has problems really telling her emotions to someone, especially romantic feelings. You can't even imagine how good she is at pretending emotional calmness - She has blank neutral face, but the fire of unending rage burns in her
And seems only few people can see it, me included... Sometimes she can't control it tho, she's very vulnerable about some things (One of her boyfriends got stabbed and died..)what concerns me, is basically lack of time we can spend together just two of us. It's been daily 3 of us or more, and not rarely we go home at night. Once we were alone for hour an half and she told me about herself shit I was sometimes shocked by.
The following may be the point, where some of you finally realise, how insecure girls can be.
You see this gal has interesting friends at Prague. She didn't really surprised me by surpassing my knowledge about czech underground. She told me she was once offered some arab huge amount of money for spending 14 days with him - She didn't lie, I was paying attention. Another thing is, she could work as something like hostess at rich men parties.. Not prostitute, just something better than dancing at club.. She was pretty lucky (or they saw something in her), because this job got girls who danced for years, mostly..
Now the point - I'm not going to tell you directly what her problem has been, but it's related to not liking her body at all..
Now think guys - Girl who's been offered money by some fucking rich arab and a job like that, not liking her body to the point of basically hurting herself - How insecure is that ?!
She's off to Prague since today, for a week or so, so much needed space has been provided.. Thing is what to do, when she comes back.. I'd like to somehow get her out just two of us, but I hope it will be possible with the guy taking us out almost everyday.
I'm almost sure this gal likes me. She said things about which I felt instantly "She's trying to tell me she likes me subtly" and I could see it in her eyes in some moments.. But she's insecure and told me she can't tell if somebody likes her, even with her strong reading of people's feelings (You can't even imagine how ridiculously she's good at it)
So I have to take action.. I've been used to gals taking the first step lately, so it's not easy, especially in this kind of situation
Advice, thoughts, everything welcomed...
