I've been watching a few episodes without thinking of anything else.
Bits of anger pop up because moments flash to mind of how her behavior mirrored mine and when shit started going downhill, not anger with her but with myself.
It's pointing to something deeper. It doesn't matter what happens now with her, whether anything happens or not.
It wasn't them, it was me.
Those feelings make me feel like a lesser man and I despise weakness within myself, I have no tolerance for it.
Stuff's coming up and I can hear the inner voice and what it really thinks, how it really feels, man is it ugly.