I was in community college in Drama class. After our 1st performance, this very pretty, tall, and shapely light skinned black woman was just gushing about how I did. I was like 18 at the time...still wet behind the ears. I was shy and still coming to terms with women in general...I was no virgin, mind you...but still, everything I know now weren't even hypothesis' yet.
So, as the semester wore on, she would make it a point to talk with me any chance she got. She told me almost immediately that she was married, which honestly kind of relieved me, because I felt like the pressure was off cause she wasn't expecting anything from me and I could really just be myself and relax. This was when I still had a lot of respect for marriages. Little did I know....
So the group assignment shows up. She rushes over to me and basically makes me her partner. So, she picks the play/act were are gonna do...why was there a kissing scene in it? I read it over, and the kiss read very innocent like...no big deal, so I'm like ok, whatevs.
So, next week or so was practice, and each of us groups of 2 went to private rooms to practice. I remember when I walked in the room and saw her in there, in a short skirt and a low cut shirt, popping an Altoid...my brain was like, "Oh SNAP!", but I just shrugged it off. So we practice, and the kissing part was about in the middle.
So we get there, and I go for the kiss as I read it....closed mouthed and hesitant. This lady just grabbed my head and starts tongue kissing the FUCK out of me, like she is trying to suck out my soul. I was in shock. So I stopped her and said, "I don't think the kiss is supposed to be like this."
She says, "Well, we'll do it your way for the grade...this is how I want to practice it." She loved to practice that kiss, lemme tell you.
So now I'm thinking of husbands and shotguns and stuff. Now, we never met up outside of class...didn't have to. So, the night before the graded performance, she calls me (we exchanged numbers but hadn't used them until then) to tell me that she wants to meet up with me that night for a last minute talk-through. My brain is trying to tell me something, but I really don't understand it yet...but I did feel funny about this.
So I agree to meet her down the street from my house at a park. It's like 930 pm and she pulls up in this late model station wagon. She parks. I get in the car. She is in a bathrobe and house slippers. Looking back, this must have been REAL impulsive for her and that she had been fantasizing about this moment for weeks.
She says, "Ummmm, I came all the way up here to give you something." (she lived quite a ways away.)
I say, "Ok. What is it?"
She looks me dead in my face and says the magic words:
"I want to give you head."
My brain is just blown. Instantly, it's like Jesus and The Devil appear on my shoulders:
Jesus: "She is married!"
Devil: "It's only a sin if you have sex! She just wants to suck your dick! You haven't had your dick sucked yet EVAR!!!1!"
So, the Devil won and I kind of nodded. Wasting no time, she leaned over, undid my jeans, and helped herself to a mouthful of Buddy Lee.
I remember sitting there, watching the cars approach and pass, wondering if the tint was dark enough where they didn't see me just sitting there with that "I'm getting my dick sucked" look on my face while the driver seat was "empty". She took it like a champ too....like a straw...no mess at all, and no evidence either.
The next day, we did our show, and the kiss was tamed down for public consumption. She propositioned me for the rest of the semester to go all the way, but I was just too damn nervous about her husband to follow through. Man, I sure wish I did....*sighs*
Lessons learned and/or reinforced?
1) I learned, inadvertently, that playing hard to get whips women into a FRENZY. I actually wasn't playing back then...I really was uncomfortable with the idea that she was married. However, looking back, I still did everything correctly to get the desired result...a woman to obsess over YOU...not the other way around. Like I've said...I was a natural before I even knew I was a natural.
2) Guys who are 18-25 should deal with older women (28-40) more often, if they are not looking to get married. Older women are much more sexually secure and in tune with themselves, plus they are so damn horny that they won't bullshit you too long, if at all. They are in their sexual peak, and so are younger guys. Plus, they will often be very aggressive, and spoil you a bit as well, as they have and usually younger guys have not.
3) Do NOT sit in the front seat of a car to receive head where there is oncoming traffic. Talk about a deer caught in headlights....
EVERYTHING in life is conditional...EVERYTHING.