Sometimes I ask myself why am I on these forums. Why do I study pick-up and why do I do everything I do "to get better with women"?
Do I have a need to get their approval/validation? Do I feel inferior to other guys? Ain't I a cool guy that doesn't need this stuff? Ain't I already good as I am? What's my fucking problem and why don't I just live life without having to study so much? Was I scared to act or too confused to make the right deccission in the right moment? Was I over-thinking this shit and worrying too much what I have to do instead of doing what I want to do? I have no idea...I can't remember....my brain is fucked up now due to disease...
Is it my past? Is it because in high school I was fat, short and had speaking problems that limited my communication a lot? Is it because of all the rejections? All I can do is be optimistic and think that everything happens for a reason...and every failure is an opportunity to rise...
Most of the people I told I'm into this stuff we're like "Why would you need that? You're fine..."
I answered myself... I got into this because I wanted more. I wanted choice and I wanted to be the best that I can be. I wanted to understand and create...and most importantly....I wanted to get away from those feelings of frustration that a beginner has when he's rejected, he's needy and so on.
Current mindset: I give everything a chance...from Cory Skyy to Kidd... the worse case scenario is "Damn this is lame." which is like seeing a bad movie, nothing tragical. The medium scenario is having a fun read...not very much to understand or learn... but useless fun stuff. The best case scenario is getting something out of it (like a good documentary). So, I'm ok as I am but there's room for improvement...and getting into this stuff is not risky, might be useful and fun...so why not give these materials a chance? Ok, I'm not OK, I'll be in hospital soon if things don't improve...but my day shall come and I will rise
Why are YOU here?