Hey guys long time no see
I have this serious problem and I think you guys are the only one's that can help me solve it I tried myself but I can't
This one is about this girl I posted on this thread
http://www.naturalfreedom.info/viewtopi ... =18&t=4027
If you read the thread I'll just continue where I left off...
So I went to North Carolina after me and this girl said our goodbye's but we still be talking to each other like texting or what not . I was really feeling this girl at this point I didn't really wanted to leave but I had to because of my job.
Fast forward a little later like a month. We were texting
Me: what you do yesterday
Her: nothing chill
Me:chill?
Her: I didn't do nothing
Me:you should tell me what you did I been nothing but honest with you
Her: I slept with my tattoo artist
Me: why would you do something like that to me?
Her: we weren't in a relationship and when I'm not in one I do whatever I want
Me:you still talking to him
Her:no
Me:who was it?
Her:Jr you don't know him haha
Me: yeah some dusty ass nigga
Her: no he is not dusty
Me:yeah right that nigga ain't doing shit
Her:yes he is
Me: I can't believe you'll do something like that to me
Her: if we we're in a relationship I'm faithful
Me: you still talking to him
Her: no
Me:I don't know if I can trust you now I need some time to think
Her:okay
I'm not going to lie I was fucking heart broken I was mad I just couldn't understand she would do this like I was only gone for a month. So the next day came I called her and basically told her that I didn't want a relationship because I just couldn't trust her plus I'll be gone all the time because I'm in the military. She said" OK if that's what you want to do"
After that shit just went straight downhill. I was stressed because my training I was doing was difficult and I probably was going to fail. I was still talking to this chick because I gained feelings for her. we would still talk to each other every day but it was just how we would talk to each other like my feelings for her would grow but her feelings towards me would shrink. We still agreed upon seeing each other when I get out of training
Fast forward a month later after that it was the day before Thanksgiving I texted her
Me: I just think deep down you're talking to someone else
Her: I'm not talking to anyone
Me: I just think me and would be good match
Her: no we won't, I'll will be wearing the pants in the relationship
Me: no I just want girl that I can trust because I'll be gone all the time and I don't want to be fucking cheated on
Her: you trip on things that don't exist
Me:why are you so mean
Her:because I'm a bitch
Me:you are gonna do me like that
Her: no I'm sorry
Me: I'm probably gonna die someday on the battlefield and before I die I wanna say...
Her: say what
Me: I will fie knowing i m with the woman I feel in love with
Her: what
Her: you love me?
Me: yeah do you love me?
Her: no
Me: you just broke my heartheart
Me:why
Her:i can't control who i fall in love with
Me: why do you do this to me
Her:im sorry
So after that i was fucking livid
I was so mad after all this time I spent. Being there for her and all I got was a knife to the fucking chest so on thanksgiving day I ended it
Me: delete my number and unfriend me off of Facebook
Her: I was asleep
Me:I don't give a fuck delete me out of your life
Her:no why
Her:I'm sorry
Me: because you broke my heart and I'm through. Forget everything I've ever said to you
Her: we are not in a relationship so why are you tripping
Me: so the fuck what just delete me forget about me. You heartless and emotionless and you don't care about me
Her: that's not true
Me: what is not true
Her: that I don't care about you
Me: okay so you still want me in your life
Her:yes
Me:OK so when two people want to be in each other lives and we both really care about each other what is that called
Her:caring for each other
Me:so you don't want to see me
Her:yes I do but as friends
Me:so you don't want have sex
Her:no
Her:is this whole thing is about sex
Me:no
Me:so you care about me but you don't want to be with me and you don't want to have sex with me
Her: yes
Me:sorry I just can't do that
Her: go ahead an trip because that's how it is
Me: how are you not sexually attracted to me I fucked you during ovarian cyst
Me: I'm through you have no fucking heart
Her: I used to have one
Me:why are still texting me leave me the fuck alone, I don't love you anymore I fucking hate you
Her: love don't go away that fast that wasn't real love at all
Me: it real it was very real but you got a knife and just stabbed in my fucking chest
Her: I'm sorry I don't want to be with you
Me:don't be sorry it is what it is
Her: you are such an ass
Me:then leave me alone and talk to whoever you been talking too
Her: I'm not talking to anyone. I can't be in a relationship because I'm not happy
Me: me and you talked about this so many times but I can't do this anymore I just can't
Her:I'll be just fine without you
Me: yeah whatever you can't be happy
After this I thought we will never talk to each other again but I still felt for this girl.so fast forward to February I added her back on Facebook and I message her on Valentines day we started messaging each other. We started catching up whatever she seems to be not doing so well she just got out of a relationship the guy left her for someone else (shocker
) so basically I told her that life is too short and I'm coming home in July and I still want see her she said she'd be down so we started talking again
(I know)
Its basically the same shit just a little different this time
We had the relationship talk again I said I wanted be with her she said she can't because she's "busy" ( I know
)
We had a text convo last night
Me:
Her: what
Me:never mind
Me:you just don't understand
Me:
Her:what
Me:I need someone to talk too
Her: what's wrong
Me: Deep down inside I feel empty like my heart has been drained
Her:why
Me:idk it been like this for awhile. Its like I don't have anything left
Me:I don't expect you to understand nobody really does
Me:
Her:I'm sorry I'm just in my head
Me:what's wrong
Her: nothing. Don't worry about it
Me:don't tell me nothing is wrong when something is obviously up
Me: why you can't talk to me...
Her:I don't talk to anyone
Me: but you can talk to me tho..
Me: I will never hurt you idk why you don't understand that
Me: one day you will understand
Me: I'm sorry about last night everybody has problems and I shouldn't have projected my towards you
She hasn't texted me back yet I know this girl is obviously not good for me but I still have feelings for her i dont like this situation that I'm in. I still want to see her in July and sometime during this time span she is leaving for California. She said she want to see me if she doesn't leave before I come home in July.
Should I just let this girl go.