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Author: | Donni G [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 1:41 am ] |
Post subject: | I have invested way too much / I need help |
Hey guys long time no see I have this serious problem and I think you guys are the only one's that can help me solve it I tried myself but I can't This one is about this girl I posted on this thread http://www.naturalfreedom.info/viewtopi ... =18&t=4027 If you read the thread I'll just continue where I left off... So I went to North Carolina after me and this girl said our goodbye's but we still be talking to each other like texting or what not . I was really feeling this girl at this point I didn't really wanted to leave but I had to because of my job. Fast forward a little later like a month. We were texting Me: what you do yesterday Her: nothing chill Me:chill? Her: I didn't do nothing Me:you should tell me what you did I been nothing but honest with you Her: I slept with my tattoo artist Me: why would you do something like that to me? Her: we weren't in a relationship and when I'm not in one I do whatever I want Me:you still talking to him Her:no Me:who was it? Her:Jr you don't know him haha Me: yeah some dusty ass nigga Her: no he is not dusty Me:yeah right that nigga ain't doing shit Her:yes he is Me: I can't believe you'll do something like that to me Her: if we we're in a relationship I'm faithful Me: you still talking to him Her: no Me:I don't know if I can trust you now I need some time to think Her:okay I'm not going to lie I was fucking heart broken I was mad I just couldn't understand she would do this like I was only gone for a month. So the next day came I called her and basically told her that I didn't want a relationship because I just couldn't trust her plus I'll be gone all the time because I'm in the military. She said" OK if that's what you want to do" After that shit just went straight downhill. I was stressed because my training I was doing was difficult and I probably was going to fail. I was still talking to this chick because I gained feelings for her. we would still talk to each other every day but it was just how we would talk to each other like my feelings for her would grow but her feelings towards me would shrink. We still agreed upon seeing each other when I get out of training Fast forward a month later after that it was the day before Thanksgiving I texted her Me: I just think deep down you're talking to someone else Her: I'm not talking to anyone Me: I just think me and would be good match Her: no we won't, I'll will be wearing the pants in the relationship Me: no I just want girl that I can trust because I'll be gone all the time and I don't want to be fucking cheated on Her: you trip on things that don't exist Me:why are you so mean Her:because I'm a bitch Me:you are gonna do me like that Her: no I'm sorry Me: I'm probably gonna die someday on the battlefield and before I die I wanna say... Her: say what Me: I will fie knowing i m with the woman I feel in love with Her: what Her: you love me? Me: yeah do you love me? Her: no Me: you just broke my heartheart Me:why Her:i can't control who i fall in love with Me: why do you do this to me Her:im sorry So after that i was fucking livid I was so mad after all this time I spent. Being there for her and all I got was a knife to the fucking chest so on thanksgiving day I ended it Me: delete my number and unfriend me off of Facebook Her: I was asleep Me:I don't give a fuck delete me out of your life Her:no why Her:I'm sorry Me: because you broke my heart and I'm through. Forget everything I've ever said to you Her: we are not in a relationship so why are you tripping Me: so the fuck what just delete me forget about me. You heartless and emotionless and you don't care about me Her: that's not true Me: what is not true Her: that I don't care about you Me: okay so you still want me in your life Her:yes Me:OK so when two people want to be in each other lives and we both really care about each other what is that called Her:caring for each other Me:so you don't want to see me Her:yes I do but as friends Me:so you don't want have sex Her:no Her:is this whole thing is about sex Me:no Me:so you care about me but you don't want to be with me and you don't want to have sex with me Her: yes Me:sorry I just can't do that Her: go ahead an trip because that's how it is Me: how are you not sexually attracted to me I fucked you during ovarian cyst Me: I'm through you have no fucking heart Her: I used to have one Me:why are still texting me leave me the fuck alone, I don't love you anymore I fucking hate you Her: love don't go away that fast that wasn't real love at all Me: it real it was very real but you got a knife and just stabbed in my fucking chest Her: I'm sorry I don't want to be with you Me:don't be sorry it is what it is Her: you are such an ass Me:then leave me alone and talk to whoever you been talking too Her: I'm not talking to anyone. I can't be in a relationship because I'm not happy Me: me and you talked about this so many times but I can't do this anymore I just can't Her:I'll be just fine without you Me: yeah whatever you can't be happy After this I thought we will never talk to each other again but I still felt for this girl.so fast forward to February I added her back on Facebook and I message her on Valentines day we started messaging each other. We started catching up whatever she seems to be not doing so well she just got out of a relationship the guy left her for someone else (shocker ) so basically I told her that life is too short and I'm coming home in July and I still want see her she said she'd be down so we started talking again (I know) Its basically the same shit just a little different this time We had the relationship talk again I said I wanted be with her she said she can't because she's "busy" ( I know ) We had a text convo last night Me: Her: what Me:never mind Me:you just don't understand Me: Her:what Me:I need someone to talk too Her: what's wrong Me: Deep down inside I feel empty like my heart has been drained Her:why Me:idk it been like this for awhile. Its like I don't have anything left Me:I don't expect you to understand nobody really does Me: Her:I'm sorry I'm just in my head Me:what's wrong Her: nothing. Don't worry about it Me:don't tell me nothing is wrong when something is obviously up Me: why you can't talk to me... Her:I don't talk to anyone Me: but you can talk to me tho.. Me: I will never hurt you idk why you don't understand that Me: one day you will understand Me: I'm sorry about last night everybody has problems and I shouldn't have projected my towards you She hasn't texted me back yet I know this girl is obviously not good for me but I still have feelings for her i dont like this situation that I'm in. I still want to see her in July and sometime during this time span she is leaving for California. She said she want to see me if she doesn't leave before I come home in July. Should I just let this girl go. |
Author: | The Kidd!! [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 2:37 am ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
Should I just let this girl go.
You never had her, therefore there is nothing to let go of BRUH |
Author: | Donni G [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 2:43 am ] | ||
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | ||
Should I just let this girl go.
You never had her, therefore there is nothing to let go of BRUH |
Author: | Dali [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 4:43 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
What... Wait... Did I... |
Author: | Altair [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 5:15 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
She was truthful with you. You need to remove the things that are blocking the way you perceive the world. |
Author: | TheKing_65 [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 12:29 pm ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
You’re going to have to learn to keep your heart out of your dick, treat jump-offs like jump-offs, and to stop doing LDRs. |
Author: | Flow83 [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 3:02 pm ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
You are trying to get something from her that neither she, nor any woman in the world, could ever give you. She's being unusually clear about that. None of this has anything to do with her. You have much work to do. |
Author: | Jared [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 3:51 pm ] | |||
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |||
You are trying to get something from her that neither she, nor any woman in the world, could ever give you.
“It doesn’t matter how much you love someone,
you are never going to be what that person wants you to be.” ---Miguel Ruiz
"Whatever you give to yourself can never be taken from you."
---Vernon Howard |
Author: | Aragorn [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 6:30 pm ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
I get the feeling you feel very entitled to "having" this chick. I'd look into that. |
Author: | caster [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 7:40 pm ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
I have been there with you Donni G in something like this, and although I am not that much wiser or far removed I do know one thing: it really isn't about this one girl. It could be any of 'em really and that's the fucked up thing about it, that there isn't anything special about her, that although it seems otherwise, you can plug in whoever floats your boat a little bit and get them same result. We do it to ourselves, the them doesn't matter. |
Author: | Donni G [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 10:08 pm ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
You are trying to get something from her that neither she, nor any woman in the world, could ever give you.
Everything I need is within myself. I do have much much work to do
She's being unusually clear about that. None of this has anything to do with her. You have much work to do. |
Author: | Altair [ Tue Mar 24, 2015 10:36 pm ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
To be fair I have those feelings sometimes too. I scream silently in my head . It's like are you actually retarded. It's like talking to a wall though. Just focus on girls that aren't gonna front and fuck the rest of them. |
Author: | Donni G [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 12:13 am ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
To be fair I have those feelings sometimes too. I scream silently in my head . It's like are you actually retarded.
Yeah dude its like I'm talking to air haha but yeah I'm just gonna leave her alone and concentrate what I got going on. I already fucked a couple of chicks already plus I have an incredible job so I'm not trippin
It's like talking to a wall though. Just focus on girls that aren't gonna front and fuck the rest of them. |
Author: | peregrinus [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 12:51 am ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
Her: we weren't in a relationship and when I'm not in one I do whatever I want
Any questions?
Her: you trip on things that don't exist Her: i can't control who i fall in love with Her: we are not in a relationship so why are you tripping Me:so you care about me but you don't want to be with me and you don't want to have sex with me Her: yes, go ahead an trip because that's how it is |
Author: | Dali [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 3:36 am ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
No questions here. Check this out. Master word: Trip, So, just like algebra, interchange this word with the real meaning: Real meaning of trip: Attachment Donnie's wishful meaning : compromise
Her: we weren't in a relationship and when I'm not in one I do whatever I want (Do not try to attach to me please...)
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Her: you attach on things that don't exist Her: i can't control who i fall in love with (shure I can, but not with you, after this... Definitely) Her: we are not in a relationship so why are you attaching Me: so you care about me but you don't want to be with me and you don't want to have sex with me Her: yes, go ahead an attach because that's how it is |
Author: | Altair [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 3:58 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
While we're on the topic . I thought this was amusing. |
Author: | Donni G [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 4:21 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
Okay someone please tell me why she still agrees to see me when I come home after all this shit? |
Author: | Altair [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 4:43 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
...because she is spinning you like a plate. |
Author: | The Kidd!! [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 5:38 am ] | |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help | |
Okay someone please tell me why she still agrees to see me when I come home after all this shit?
Sympathy more than likely...emphasis on 'SYMP'
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Author: | Donni G [ Wed Mar 25, 2015 5:55 am ] |
Post subject: | Re: I have invested way too much / I need help |
Yeah what I was doing was very symp-pathetic And she is just toying with me and she get a kick out of it too wasting all my attention on her smh. she thinks that she's the greatest thing that happened to me. Wtf was I thinking |
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