Or, is this clearer:
An old acquaintance recently popped back into my life through the <sarcasm>miracle</sarcasm> of social media
Let's move on.
I re-read your post like 6 times to make shure I was not judging you lightly. "Errors" or "forms of speech", "sarcasms" at least when used not intentionally, do tell a lot about our internal conditioning and our subconsious mind that wants to get manifested.
There was then, and there is now. Sure, I have regretted the missed opportunity, but that's it. The "neediness" appeared when the interaction happened. Note I said "appeared." I may be the one creating the bullshit, but not intentionally.
How do you consider your needy-ness is, a symptom or a cause?
I'll let you analyse that...
OK .... so I can just put on a different pair of "glasses" and poof, its all different? Isn't that like trying to tell yourself you hate chocolate as you eat your 23rd candy bar of the day? Or, maybe better said, an addict trying to tell himself he doesn't need drugs or alcohol?
Yes you can, it's a matter of perception, a paradigm shift. Right now you are still feeling helpless because you can't control those feelings, and you are right you can't, but this doesn't mean that there's anything wrong with you. I'm shure you can read well between lines and know that what I said about glasses are a dropagge of emotional unessential shit you still carry.
Perhaps I am failing to communicate. By "let the issue go" I meant that I did not continue to discuss it with her, I moved on conversationally. I did not argue with her in any way. Just dropped it as a point of conversation. As far as blame is concerned, that is your fabrication altogether. Do I associate her dismissal of me with the emotions I experienced (am experiencing)? Yes, because her dismissal is the catalyst of those emotions. I haven't assigned one iota of blame on her, or placed any guilt trips on her of any kind. Not in my own mind or in my communications with her.
Why disscussing this with her, it's moronic... It's like declaring to some random person that you want to be his bitch for ever and ever 'till the end of time? How would you react to this?
You are not blaming her right know, but I can assure you, if you keep following this path sooner or later you will. She's just a trigger for an internal shit you have not yet resolved. What it's this? I don't know, but I think I'm pointing it to the right direction, that's up to you.
Superior? Is a history of interest in discovering one's real nature vs. one's mind/ego/etc really me being superior? If some methods are complete bullshit and others are not, who, then, decides which are which? I am assuming that there is something within these pages in the way of real wisdom, beyond adolescent fantasies and associated tricks to how to get your dick into as much pussy as possible without admitting that's what you're really trying to do.
The simple fact that they didn't worked for you. It's simple. You mentioned those and haven't worked with your "problem" this indicates some sort light "card dropagge" of having the tools but not knowing how to make them work for you. It's like saying I have a red hammer that I bought for lots of $$ and it's brand new and special, also I bought a gorgeous toolbox that is very expensi.... You know what I meant, you have the tools but you don't even know what you have to build or repair, or better yet
demolish!!... Hope the analogy worked.
I'm pink elephant color blind in this situation, perhaps, so if there's one here, maybe we can go straight to that conversation. I've made the decision that I am done with whatever pattern or mindset is responsible for this crap. There's obviously something hidden from me that a shift in perception may reveal. That is why I am here.
If you can recognize the shilouette of that big ass animals tells me that you are seeing it, but still ignoring it.
Glad you are here for
you, as I said before girls are powerful triggers of our internall bullshit. I guess we are the same thing for them.
That is how I started ... and have continued up to now. Of course, the basic shit is intentionally ambiguous. Like I said above, a lot of seems to be oriented toward establishing a self image that inoculates fragile male egos against the sting of female rejection.
There is a lot on how to game chicks, turn their tactics back on them, etc. Seduction stuff, which is mostly nonsense unless your quarry is mostly 20 year-olds, etc. Lots of variations on how to "Tao of Steve" girls panties off, or whatever. I get that.
I tought the same when I got here, another play it safe route, but I cannot be more wrong. If you are an emo bitch and like to be hurt embrace the pain of rejections, and thinking that this will make you more "strong" and the scars of rejection make you more "powerful" (I'm intenitionally using that wordage) or having this chivarlous view about woman you are doomed to cry and still behave like them, bitches. You can see the true nature of woman and you "better take them lightly," If you take them too "seriously" you are also doomed to fail, no matter what age she is. The seriousness is in you.
But among all that, there seemed to be some discussions about the kinds of things that happens in real life. People get blind sided once in a while. And it could be that someone in this forum has had to deal with that, and found some helpful ways to excise the internal machinery responsible for this particular depression/anxiety/whatever. I'll continue to read the "treasures" thread as was already doing. Nothing in "Kidd's Korner" seemed at all relevant.
Good to know you acknowledge your blind spot, it's good.