I had a period where I was well calibrated or at least felt like everything was clicking and lining up the way I wanted it to and then my ego struck again for a day or two and I was having feelings of impatience (which didn't manifest in any actions) which was only an internal thing going on.
When I went out last night, I spent a lot of time getting my ego under control so I could cloak properly. There was a small window that I learned a lot in the period in which my ego was threatening the guys around me and I had the clarity to properly observe the situation. It was curious to see the desperation in them, like they were legit hunting when they were out. The more interesting part was how their patterns of analyzing possible threats and being so on guard had nothing to do with me personally it was activated before I was there and continued after I left.
I spent a little bit of time being trapped in Matrix thoughts, when I first got there. It was actually a really cool experience looking back..not quite sure what triggered it. But I was like hmm this is how I used to be seems so foreign.
It was also interesting to see all the micro movements people made, all the social currency being exchanged that really has no value and actually stops relationships from developing.
We ended up changing venues to the basement of this bar that was set up like house party it was pretty cool actually. There was a couple different times where a girl would be in my space jocking me and I would do nothing and they were pretty much rubbing up against me but as soon as I'd say something they'd completely ignore me and walk off lol. They're so fucked.
There was this group of like 3 girls that were scoping me in the middle of the bar for a long time and then another group that starting sitting around me on the couch I was on. So I went over and was talking to some people by them and they started dancing into me. Some of my friends came over so I was introducing them and then I went outside for a minute came back so at that point it was like interaction over unless they start it again.
They start it again
. I was mostly hanging out with my bro. Not giving them much attention. It got to the point where they were making out with each other and I didn't even raise an eyebrow lol it's becoming a common occurance.Eventually I picked the one that I liked the best, they were all into me. And we hung out for like another 5-10 minutes and then as she was leaving I went to be like hey, here's my number or I would have even taken her number and ball stole. And she cold shouldered me, so I was thinking like fuck I'm running after you, your going straight to the smoking section to wait for me to come up to you.
I went outside and they were there so I stayed for a couple minutes while my friend had a smoke..kinda giving her a chance to fix it. She didn't so I left.
Don't get me wrong I think it's kinda hilarious how they all get themselves hot/bothered and then go home alone
probably wishing they didn't fuck up. But I wouldn't object to a women actually having a clue.
). No lightsaber battles (..maybe) pure ninja 
