How about helping your fellow students by not disrupting the class.. Or simply helping them, helping the teacher..
Honestly I only took the class because I had to. I have the desire to learn spanish and I thought I would over the summer. It's not really on my list right now. I mainly talked with my friend who was doing alright I think. He knew spanish better than me. I felt like I wanted to have fun and do what I wanted. I wasn't disrupting the class although.
I sense some diametrically opposed principles in what you have written.
I do have conflicting desires. However where do you see the opposed principles? Wanting to help and not caring? I think there are two different subjects in my post (the spanish class and staunchness with people). I honestly don't think I could really help anybody with spanish I don't feel like I'm very good at it. I was like a mercenary getting the grade was like getting paid. I only cared about the grade at the time. I focused more on math because I struggled there.
Is an A really the best you can do?
When you get an A do you give up?
What about when you move to the next class/school/college and that 'A' is now only worth a 'C' ? Will you start paying attention then?
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This to me does not sound about being staunch.. There is something beneath this, an undercurrent flowing beneath all of this... Look deeper.
Observe yourself when you are doing this, how does it feel? what are you thinking? etc etc
I am lazy I would settle for an A not a C. I have gone through periods of doing my best and I get burned out... Its a lot of work. A B is like average for me. I seem to do pretty good with little effort so I've gone by school doing little. I have definitely worked hard at times and even enjoyed that sometimes. My last english project, my speech was the longest and my teacher really liked it. I feel like she thought it was one of the best. I must have got a really good grade because my final grade shot up compared to how I did the rest of the terms. Low A's mostly. My work ethic fluctuates. Talking with my friend wasn't normally what I did. I discovered this place and tried to apply things I thought I learned. I realized I did get out of hand in areas of my life.
The spanish teacher one was something different than the dinner and girls. I noticed that after I typed. With girls I try to be staunch because I don't want to look like a symp. My indifference has increased although I let girls get to me a lot. Spanish I wanted to be cool and not be subject to other peoples opinions I feel. I had insecurities and I wanted to do the opposite I think...